|Real Talk| I promised myself that when I got older I would never have to prove myself to anyone again. Life was no math problem where I had to show my work in order for the answer to be accepted. But these days, social media requires us to show pictures or it didn’t happen. And although it was fun at first, I grew tired. I wanted to stop. But God forbid I’m not flaunting my life in case someone thinks that I’m not ok. That something is wrong. That I have nothing to offer. That I’m not worth their time. So I continued. That is until I looked in the mirror and remembered the promise I made that little girl years ago. I promised her freedom.
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So these days, I spend more time doing the work rather then trying to show y’all. I’m doing the unglamorous side of self care. The clean up after the party. I’m celebrating how far I have come, but I’m not gonna pretend that there isn’t still things that don’t need to be dealt with. I won’t stay so busy sharing #AboutLastNight highlights that I forget that there is still work to be done. Now I’m not knocking this space. There is still so much to be appreciated which is why I’m still here. But sometimes it seems like as a society we are more concerned about being in each other’s newsfeed then we are about being free. I’m still learning the balance. Of showing my work and allowing my answer to stand on its own.