Went to my daughters parents evening today. It‚Äôs my first time in 4yrs. It was quite an emotional experience which was expected. It‚Äôs not close to what I want but I‚Äôm getting closer to seeing my daughters again. .
For the past 3.5yrs I‚Äôve struggled and fought to be an involved father. I‚Äôve had many moments, days, weeks, months that I felt like giving up feeling as there‚Äôs no one to turn to, no one to give a listen ear or a shoulder to lean on.
After 3.5yrs, 4 court attempts, cried many years, suicide attempts. I can now say, the fight, the pain, the setbacks, the downs, the ups, the highs, the lows, the homelessness, the loneliness, the fears, the doubts, the feelings of lack, the feelings of not being good enough, no family, no friends, no food, no money, no hope. .
I still kept the faith, I prayed, I read, I listen, I look, I leant, I change, I seek and I find peace within myself.
In moments of depression, stress, anxiety I turned to personal development, mentors, coaches, strangers, YouTube, podcasts, women (for love), because I was lack, fitness. .
I‚Äôve turned my pain into purpose. I didn‚Äôt allow my current situation to define my final destination. I made a stand to be the voice for the fatherless and fathers/men who might be going through the same situation.
I‚Äôve learned over the years, that in order for the things and people around to change, you first have to be the change.
Whatever you‚Äôre going thru as a father or anyone of sort, BELIEVE. Don‚Äôt give up even when giving up seems easiest. .
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