Itâs funny how many products are on the market to get rid of stretch marks, donât you think? Weâve been led to believe that any marks on our skin should be hidden or erased. Every one of us have all of these beautiful features that make us unique & make us who we are... Yet weâre still told that we should be striving to achieve the same beauty ideal & look the same.
Itâs rare to see women photographed with stretch marks, acne, cellulite, dimples or rolls. So when I got these stretch marks, I remember crying about them & thinking, âgreat, another thing that isolates me from what Iâm supposed to look like.â .
I looked in the mirror & saw these deep, dark lines that had appeared because I had gained so much weight so quickly during my ED. I felt ashamed & ugly & told myself I would never let them see the light of day in public. I couldnât think about how these lines were a part of me & how they made me unique & beautiful, all I could think about was that Iâd never seen anyone else with them before who wasnât part of an ad for a stretch mark cream to âget rid of imperfections, FAST.â
I took this photo when I went to the beach a few months later; the first time Iâd been in a bikini in almost 10 years. I was sick of feeling ashamed of all of the changes my body had been through in the past few years & feeling like I didnât deserve to enjoy the beach because of it.
My stretch marks have faded a lot since I first got them. I wish I took a photo of them when they were beautiful & pronounced & dark; Iâm actually quite sad that you canât really see them anymore! I looked at them when I was at the beach & thought, âthese are actually super cute!â I traced them with my finger & thought of everything Iâve been through; the lowest of lows during my ED, how hard recovery has been & how brave Iâve been to come out of it strong & soft at the same time.
These squiggly little lines might be indicators of weight that Iâve gained, but theyâre also marks of my growth. They donât make me any less deserving of happiness & donât make me better or worse than anyone else. They show where Iâve been, how far Iâve come & how brave I am. So Iâm not hiding them anymore. đ