I have struggled with depression for decades, and in 2012 life threw what seemed like everything it had at me. Luckily, I was able to spend a lot of time on the trails around Portland.
In 2013, I moved to rural Thailand, and all of my favorite coping mechanisms were no longer easily accessible. A lot built up in me and I yearned for the mountains again. I ached for the burn in my muscles that comes from hours of getting to know the topography. I needed to inhale the scents that the forest makes as it turns back into soil.
In October 2014, I made it to the Himalayas for the first time. I spent five days, trodding through a truly magnificent landscape.
I left my tears on that trek. I left my hurt in those sacred, healing places. We burned juniper at the high pass as an offering to the spirits and I felt my own get lighter.
I still miss the mountains. Parts of me are there.
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